Small steps in faith

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

"I'm going to fix you"

I was watching a show tonight ..a girl was in an accident and had very little hope of walking..the surgeon about to operate on her said "I'm going to fix you"
It reminded me of this morning when I was driving to work and listening to the Coldplay song "Fix you" I had never really listened or maybe I should say thought about the words to the song
I think alot of times I try to "fix" myself or others and it doesn't work It's beyond me and I need to let go

Fix You

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

and high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try then you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face and ahhhh

tears stream down your face
i promise you i will learn from my mistakes
tears stream down your face and ahhhh

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

Saturday, May 27, 2006

A night for celebration

Tonight I had the privilege to be at Dylan's baptism Dylan is my daughter, Kristen's boyfriend, Tyler's twin brother He was baptized when he was 7 but felt he didn't really understand it and wanted to rededicate his decision to follow Christ It always gives me goosebumps when they go under and come back up
Phil Wing played one of my favorite songs with just an acoustic guitar and piano "Come and Listen" by David Crowder
We all then went to Marion's to celebrate...they have the BEST sausage pizza

Dylan will be traveling to Mexico on a mission trip in July..keep him in prayer

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Being hands and feet

I was reading an article this morning about a man who was dealing with the illness/death of a friend who was thousands of miles away He and his wife had decided that they needed to physically go see their friend The following words just struck my heart

Sometimes it's not enough to tell a suffering friend you're praying for them. Sometimes you have to become the answer to your own prayer. When you ask God to send help, you have to be ready to become that help. What else could we possibly mean when we talk about being the hands and feet of Christ?

It brought back a memory of a time when I had a friend who was going through a difficult time and I had prayed for God to send someone ...God's answer was that I needed to be that someone I needed to be the "hands and feet"
I think we always need to be ready to be the help we're praying for

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Pumpkin is worth 1.6 million

I read an article about a man who is suing for 1.6 million dollars because of "loss of companionship" when his neighbor ran over his dog I totally understand Our dog is part of our family It's like having another child She has a personality and she is totally loved by everyone in our family and we would be devastated if something like that happened to her

U.S. man seeks $1.6 mln in dead dog suit Tue May 23, 8:22 AM ET

An Oregon man has filed a $1.6 million "loss of companionship" claim against a neighbor who ran over his family's 13-year-old dog, Grizz.

Raymond Weaver ran over the golden retriever and cocker spaniel mix in 2004 with a pick-up truck, forcing the owner, Mark Greenup, to have the animal euthanized, according to a lawsuit by Greenup.

Greenup, whose claim is usually reserved for the loss of a spouse, says the dog provided each member of his family with solace, affection, friendship, love and protection.

Larry Dawson, the driver's attorney, said the dog's injuries were not serious enough to require euthanasia and wants the court to dismiss the loss of companionship claim.

"I've owned dogs and I love them dearly," said Dawson. "But they are by law personal property and you do not get noneconomic damages for personal property."

The case goes to trial on Tuesday in Clackamas County Circuit Court.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Digging for the truth

I went to Apex last night with my family to hear their youth/college minister, Jason Wing, speak on "The Davinci Code"
He didn't get up and bash the movie or the book What he did was challenge those listening to him to be able to know what they believe and why.
He challenged the people that attend that church regularly to look into their hearts as to why they attend it because of the music?,is it because "Rob is a cool guy" ? Sometimes things are wrapped in "pretty packages" and can be deceptive i.e "The DaVinci Code"
He pulled out 5 things in the book/movie which are "distorted"(It is a FICTION book)and using scripture as well as historical facts/documents explained what was actual fact It was obvious as he spoke that he knew what he was talking about I found out later when he and his family came in to Chipotle and I was introduced to him, that he had gone through a period 5 yrs earlier when he had his own doubts . It caused him to look into scriptures and church history so that he was strong and secure in his faith. He told me that since that time it's been his passion and that was obvious when he gave his message
As believers,we are going to have people,believers and nonbelievers,asking our opinion on what we think about "The Davinci Code" You're going to make more of an impact if you know where they're coming from and know why you believe what you believe and be able to communicate that to them in a loving,effective way.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

The next step

Do you ever feel like you're sitting at a red light waiting for it to turn green and it just takes forever..especially when you're in a hurry :)
That's how I feel my life plays out sometimes and I get impatient
If I go before the light turns green....

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

What are they thinking?

This puts a bad taste in my mouth....ugh!

Church gives away iPods to draw new members Lars Jacoby
The Arizona Republic
May. 12, 2006 12:00 AM

IPod Shuffle giveaways have been used to lure people to open bank accounts and buy cars and as bait by online hucksters. Well, now even churches are getting in on the craze.

Leaders of the Interfaith Unity Church, 1731 W. Baseline Road in Mesa, are hoping to capitalize on the gadget's popularity and entice people to try out their 10:30 a.m. Sunday service.

"What we really want to do is we want people to know that we want them to come, we want them to possibly shuffle in and soar out," the Rev. Julianne Lewis said. Lewis said whether someone wins the Shuffle or not, she hopes the church's message sticks with people and they continue to come back after the promotion ends June 11. advertisement

To win the iPod Shuffle you must be a congregation member at least 14 years old who also has a parent that is a member. If you're a guest of the church, you must be at least 18 years old. You must be present at the time of the drawing, and one winner per household.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006


We had a great discussion on worship at 3rd Place last night
When you try to put a definition to's hard Especially when Mike asked how you would describe worship to nonbelievers I think it's hard because it's hard to put words to emotions I do think worship is one of those things that if you don't experience don't get that full experience of a relationship with God We started off talking about music as worship It's a beginning step to learning how to worship..most people do relate to music We sang two worship songs with Mike playing his guitar There's something about the blending of different voices singing together that just creates a special intimacy with a group and I know that last night we had was a bond between us and was worship

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Knowing what you believe ..why..and how to communicate it effectively

I watched Voddie Baucham on 722 tonight give an awesome sermon on what to say to those who believe that what the Davinci Code portrays is truth The picture is from 722 and is the bottom line as to why you can believe what you believe and communicate that effectively about the Bible I think the key to all of this is communicating what you believe in a loving way...not argument

"The Prayer of the Kingdom"

Last night as I was looking at different websites I found a study guide to the book I'm reading, "The Secret Message of Jesus" . It has a group focus but it may help you focus on certain points in the chapters when you're reading it.
The other thing I found on the website is a chapter that was part of the original manuscript called "The Prayer of the Kingdom" It takes the Lord's Prayer (Prayer of the Kingdom) and dissects it. He also gives some history to that time which helps to understand it as well I think he's right on target when he says "Sadly, the prayer has been so often recited in such a bland,thoughtless, autopilot monotone that few people realize what a revolutionary, challenging, and well crafted work of art it is."

As I was reading this his scripture quote just really stuck in my heart

"His kingdom will never end." Luke 1:33

Somtimes I think it's difficult for people to know what to say when they pray
We were given this guide to our prayers by Christ but even saying the prayer itself with thought may be your connection to God

"I can imagine no greater spiritual practice for people seeking the kingdom of God than to pray this prayer--not as some magical incantation, not as a mindless mantra, but as a way of dislodging our attention and affection from secondary distractions and refocusing them on what mattters most. I have found it especially helpful to pray the prayer slowly, pausing after each line, to savor the meaning and let it resonate in my mind and heart. Doing so seems to create a pathway in the soul that leads us to God--and into God's kingdom."

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

This is sad..but it did make me laugh

I think that my sense of humor is probably a little warped at 3 am but I read this on Relevant magazine and it made me laugh at the "visual" i had

Man Arrested for Allegedly Driving Drunk on Lawn Mower
Sunday, May 07, 2006

VERMILION, Ohio — A northern Ohio man is accused of operating a lawnmower while drunk.

Dondi Bowles of Vermilion was arrested Friday night as he drove the mower on a sidewalk. Police say he drove the mower to a store about a mile from his home and was arrested on his way back. The lawn mower was towed.

Police say a breath test showed that Bowles' blood alcohol level was .144 percent, which is over the legal limit of .08 percent.

Police say it was Bowels' third drunken-driving-related arrest in six months.

I guess some people are just desperate to drive :) Can they take your license for this ?

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Quiet Places

I am part of a family that loves to be around other people including each other. I am someone who needs alone time and trying to explain that can sometimes be difficult to those who hate to be alone. I've been waking up alot at night and after listening to the message tonight, a little light bulb went off in my head as to why :

16But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.

I need alone time

In the sermon he explained that when we have that alone time, that's when God will work on our hearts...Not always a comfortable place to be but necessary if we're going to grow closer to Christ. Sometimes we need a "general practitioner" but many times we need a "surgeon"

Community is an important part of our life, but so is alone time
I just hope the rest of my family who heard the same message has a better understanding of why sometimes I'm "antisocial" and why I feel the need to get up at night and be alone

Friday, May 05, 2006

Being a parent doesn't get easier

Kristen has been home for 3 days now. Come over and walk in my living room and you will know that :) We are in the process of cleaning out the attic to store stuff from the basement to store her stuff from college Ugh!
It's been a good week but also has been a challenging week
When we had our children, we felt a responsibility to raise and guide them the best way we knew how
The goal? To have them grow into a responsible adult who makes their own decisions The hard part this week? Realizing that I did my job and sometimes it's a very hard thing when their choices aren't necessarily mine and I have to respect that difference.
When they were younger, if they made a choice we didn't agree with,we would listen but we had the veto power. We were in control.
As the parent of an adult, I can make my feelings and ideas known, they can listen ,but ultimately they have that control and veto power. That's a hard adjustment but if we did our job as parents ..It's ok.

Monday, May 01, 2006

1 more day !!!

Darrell and I leave tomorrow morning to get Kristen for the summer :)
4 months yay!!!