Small steps in faith

Monday, October 31, 2005

My neurosurgeon appt

Please keep me in prayer tomorrow morning as I see my neurosurgeon and find out what will need to be done for my herniated disc
I really don't want surgery but I trust Dr. Moncrief's opinion and will accept what he recommends.. I'm tired of pain and I'm tired of having a numb thumb and 1st finger I just want "normal" back

Sunday, October 30, 2005

The creation of Eve

In the book "Captivating" that Tena and I are doing with the Sr High girls our lesson this week talks about the creation of Eve I love the following paragraphs from the book

"It is nearing the end of the sixth day, the end of the Creator's great labor, as Adam steps forth, the image of God, the truiumph of his work He alone is pronounced the son of God. Nothing in creation even comes close. Picture Michelangelo's David He is...Magnificent. Truly, the masterpiece seems complete. And yet, the Master says that something is not good, not right. Something is missing...and that something is Eve.
She is the crescendo, the final, astonishing work of God. Woman. In one last flourish creation comes to a finish not with Adam, but with Eve. She is the
Master's finishing touch.

The one thing that we are trying to impact on these girls is that they are special, they are important. that they matter to God, and that all of them are beautiful
I think this says that to them ..and to all women

Friday, October 28, 2005

Laundromat experience

I only go to a laundromat as a last resort when my washer/dryer isn't working I think all laundromats are like the one he describes I liked his analogy to dignity and respect and privacy

October 27, 2005

Airing Dirty Laundry
by John Fischer

The TV on the wall is into its second consecutive Bill Cosby Show daytime rerun. I have six loads of wash going plus a triple-load commercial washer for the comforter and mattress cover. I've gone next door for change three times because I'm still thinking about what it used to cost me to do this the last time I was in a laundromat… thirty years ago? I feel a little trapped -- like I'm doing time in a minimum-security state prison.

Here's who goes to laundromats: singles, renters transitioning between homes, college students, divorcees and perhaps a smattering of homeless who can afford it. Oh yes, and people like me, whose washer or dryer is on the blink and they have to wait for a warranty service man to come repair it.

It's a very temporary feeling here, and a little bit unnerving, pulling out your private things before whomever is sharing the machine next to yours. And for all the cleaning that goes on in a laundromat, it always seems to be the dirtiest place in town. How do you fold sheets without them hitting the floor? Do I want to pull my life out here and fold it? Why does it feel like I'm doing that? From the lack of eye contact people throw you here, it seems I'm not the only one who feels this way. Here we are in our private worlds, cleaning our private stuff, but that's just it, nothing's private here.

What can I take away from this experience beyond four piles of clean laundry? Respect for a person's dignity would be one thing, along with a realization that there is a place for privacy in everyone's life. Perhaps this is one of the most underrated privileges we lose both to old age and poverty: one's privacy. Privacy and dignity are intertwined.

We need to respect this about people whenever we are around them, especially people we may not know. How can we ever expect anyone to want to hear what we have to say if, at the most basic level, we don't respect them for who they are, what they believe, and what has brought them to where they are today.

A laundromat is a public place for getting laundry clean. There is a time and a place to air dirty laundry, but not here. That comes with trust. Here you want to whisk your dirty laundry into the washer as quickly as possible. Sharing of the gospel needs to come within the context of a fundamental trust, and trust is earned over time. It takes an initial respect for privacy before anything can be exposed.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

"Captivating" our beauty

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I lead a Sr. High girls bible study and tonight we talked about taking off the masks we put on and letting inner beauty show in our outer beauty This is a picture of us with our "masks" still on :)

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Don't be a sideliner

In the book "Seizing Your Divine Moment" Erwin McManus talks about "sideliners" It's the people who never really get in the game They look on , they tend to be the ones who suggest but never want to do,who criticize but don't want to be the solution to the problem We all know people like that in all aspects of our life..Not just church They are missing out on what God wants for them because they're always "waiting to see if it's God's will"
"Wake up Get out of bed. God want to change the world through your life if you'll just do something. Do what you know you should do, and you will know what to do. God clarifies in the midst of obedience, not beforehand"
It took me awhile to learn this If you don't know what your gift or talent is don't just sit and wait ..Do something That's the only way God will make it known to you You have to listen for his voice...His prompting In our small group last night we were talking about listening to God I've never heard an "audible voice" but God puts ideas and thoughts in my head and when I don't obey it's like I can hear him yelling inside my head Someone asked is that normal? I don't know if it is .. I only know that's how I hear God The more I talk to Him and rely on Him the more I hear Him
Erwin says "Maybe there is a touch of insanity to think that your or I could really make a difference, knowing who we are, that we could somehow change the course of human history. If it's normal to wake up in the morning and just try to make it through the day, then I vote for abnormality. I choose insanity"
So do I, and those are the kind of friends I want , someone who's not afraid to take the initiative and make a difference for God's kingdom

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Saying good-bye

Kristen,Tyler,and Dylan went back to Lee after spending 4 days here for fall break
Someone told me that it will get easier to say good-bye ... It hasn't gotten easier yet Empty nests are no fun
The positive....they'll be home in 3 weeks :)

They just called me and they are 30 minutes from's 60 degrees and no rain ...LUCKY!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Don't get stuck in a moment

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"I think we need to spend a day with Monet. He had a clear sense of what was hidden in a moment. Most of us think of a moment as something that's stationary,stagnant, and unchanging. We want to capture the moment and stand in the moment. If there's a moment you want to preserve or remember, you take a snapshot.
The genius of Monet is that he saw the moment for what is really was. It was as if he actually read the dictionary and realized that the essence of the words moment and motion are the same Monet was the master of light and movement. His paintings were blurred and obscure and yet beautiful and full of insight. If we could somehow see life through his eyes, we would begin to see life as it really is. Our ability to see the world as it really is has been corrupted by the camera. With a turn of a lens or a push of a button, we are able to take the blur out. We've come to see the world through still frames, when in reality life is in constant motion. "

To relive the past is to relinquish the future. If you are willing to let go of the past, then you are ready to step into the future. When you choose to remain stuck in a moment, you become incapable of seizing your divine moments

"Seizing Your Divine Moment" Erwin Raphael McManus

Friday, October 21, 2005

1st day home

It was so nice to wake up yesterday and see Kristen in her bed :) We had a relaxed day at home We made manicotti which turned out to be a little messy to make but they were good and then Darrell and Kristen made oatmeal/chocolate chip cookies..also good :) I realized one of the things I miss the most about Kristen being gone is her singing Kristen will randomly burst into song ..Zach on the other hand ..:)
Tyler and Dylan came over and we had a nice impromptu discussion about the Holy Spirit and the gift of tongues At the churches they attend near Lee University they experience people who speak in tongues There are alot of views about this We looked it up in the Bible 1 Corinthians 12 and 14 to get a biblical view Dylan wanted to know why our church doesn't have anyone who speaks in tongues when they're filled with the Holy Spirit Hard question We did determine that not everyone has that gift and if you do you there needs to be someone who can interpret or it's meaningless to others..especially the nonbeliever Even Paul says "I thank God that I speak in tongues more than all of you . But in the church I would rather speak five intelligible words to instruct others than ten thousand words in a tongue." 1 Corinthians 14:18 I encouraged him to talk to Roger as far as Southwest belief The one thing I have noticed with Kristen,Tyler,and Dylan is that they have grown in their closeness to Christ We also watched the Nooma video Mike let me borrow called "Dust" That gives such a clear view on what it means to be a disciple and where that came from I love when things tie history to new testament and then to our lives now
We later went to Kristen's favorite store Target and Starbucks Kristen had chai latte which was good(It reminds me of gingerbread) and I had pumpkin spice latte (very good!) We rented the video Robots which I fell asleep through so I can't tell you if it's good or not :)
Tomorrow Kristen is spending the day at Jonathan Wright with Ann Finnie observing what it's like to teach 1st grade and then she and Tyler are celebrating their year anniversary
So I just plan to enjoy my time with Kristen the next few days Sunday will be here too soon :(

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

They're coming home !!!

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I'm so excited Kristen and Tyler come home today I haven't seen them in 2 seems like forever They are planning on leaving at 10:30 and should hopefully be home around 4:30 to 5:00 Please keep them in prayer for safe travel
Their plan is to go to the Garage tonight for Anthony Munoz but mainly to see their friends :)

I had to have my EMG yesterday It wasn't too bad The first part they use this electric stimulator it's kind of like being shocked with my dog Pumpkin's electric collar on low volt The second part was a little more painful He takes a guidewire and inserts it several places on my arm and neck It's like being stung by a bee about 10 times The neck was the worse I was biting my lip pretty hard ..As a preliminary I have 2 abnormal nerve conductions going from c6 in my neck to my rt arm which didn't totally surprise me since they told me the herniated disc is compressing my the next step is Dr. Moncreif Pray this will heal with therapy and not surgery but I will accept what he tells me and trust that God is in control

At small group Monday, one of the things Mike talked about was excellence vs success ..excellence is the rainbow and success is the pot of gold and sometimes we miss the rainbow to get to the pot of gold Isn't that a cool way to think of it and it's so true We're in such a hurry to get what we want that we don't realize that the journey to get there is the important step..where we grow in our faith and our relationships

Sunday, October 16, 2005

"It all starts when you look up"

I've started to reread a book by Louie Giglio called " I am not but I know I AM "
Jeff is using that for Sun night FUEL It's funny how when you read something you pick up something new each time The following passage spoke to me

"So if you're at a place in life where weariness and strain are more commonplace than rest and wonder, this book has found you at just the right time. God knows you better than you know yourself. He knows just how small and frail you are. He knows you're just one person, and a tiny one at that. He knows all the things that you are not--and He made you that way for a purpose. that's why He has never asked you to be more than your are--little you with a great big God.

But God also is in touch with just how potent He is, desiring to do huge, God-sized things through you if you're ready to abandon the path of making more of self and embrace the miracle of being small, yet knowing His name.


I'm going through a time where I feel like Paul with his thorn and I have to remember what God said to Paul and Paul's response

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Saturday, October 15, 2005


"When God takes something that seems to have no value or even seems to be a liability and exchanges it for something beautiful"

God always does more than we deserve He takes a sack of ashes in exchange for a crown of beauty It doesn't always seem to make's unconditional love..mercy..and grace

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Friday, October 14, 2005

New ipods

I thought they just came out with a new ipod ? This one sounds really cool I would love to watch "Lost" at my convenience on a video ipod :)but I have itunes so I guess I can still download if if I want...I just can't take it with me

It’s unfolded before your eyes. The revolution that is iPod first took the music scene by storm. Further spiced things up with full-color photos. Added a full complement of podcasts to the mix.

And now iPod has turned the world topsy-turvy once again with video, letting you carry up to 150 hours of video wherever you go. Imagine: With iPod, you can play the DJ one minute. Rock with the latest Madonna or U2 music videos the next. Then get lost with “Lost”—or any of the other TV shows or short films now available for purchase and download from the iTunes Music Store.

Thinner and lighter than the 30GB and 60GB iPod models they replace, the newest iPod comes in black or white, selling for just $299 and $399, respectively. And they’re shipping next week.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Largest pumpkin Posted by Picasa

A 1443 pumpkin Unbelievable! The article said it could probably make 600 pumpkin pies but they will be carving it into a jack o' lantern..I vote for the pies :)


Last night at 3rd place Mike talked about grace and works He gave us a definition for grace..."God gives us what we need not what we deserve" That's a humbling thought
This morning I was reading in a book I'm trying to finish and there was grace again Here is the example John Ortberg gave

"But the good news about surfing is this: If you miss one wave, if you fall off, if you wipe out, there's another wave coming right behind it. God just keeps sending them He never runs out of waves. He has and inexhaustible supply. He's like a wave machine. ...The Bible's word for that is "grace"

Monday, October 10, 2005

You're not alone

I think it's so important to have family and friends beside you in life I love my times of solitude but in the big picture I love having someone to share my joys and sorrows
My friend and job share partner Mary lost her mom on Saturday These next few days will be very hard on her and her family Please keep them in prayer
The following devo was in my email this morning

As believers in Christ and members of the family of God we are, indeed, travelers on a trip with a destination. We are not insignificant results of evolved DNA wandering around the cosmos with no end but a forgotten grave. We are sacred stories in the mind of a Creator-God on a journey to our eternal home with Him, and He is using our lives, along the way, to make a statement.

"And because this journey has a destination, all points of it have meaning. We are not just marking time here. We are building towards something solid. The steps are a necessary part of our growth. If we didn't need this, we wouldn't be here. God would have taken us home long ago. But our work here is not finished, and not only our work, but also the work of life's experiences upon us, is still being done. God is using everything in our lives to mold us into who He wants us to be for Him in eternity. We are fellow travelers with a destination and the destination brings purpose and hope to the here and now. You can endure just about anything along the way, if you know, ahead of time, that the outcome of your journey is secure.

But we are also “fellow travelers.” In other words, we are going where we are going together. That's a big part of the deal. You don't go it alone on this road to eternity. We have not only a cloud of witnesses who have gone before us and are now cheering us on (Hebrews 12:1), we have a fellowship of those around us who are in the middle of the same journey. We have each other for companionship, comfort, strength, accountability, and encouragement. And when we fall, there is always someone there to pick us up.

Isn't it good to have company? "

John Fischer

Sunday, October 09, 2005

"Where the Echoes Stop"

Where the Echoes Stop
by Erwin Raphael McManus

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Far past where sound has abandoned thought.
Where silence reigns over redundancy.
Where once well said is more than enough.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where words must be born to be heard.
Where speech is a gift and not a curse.
Where there is more of the unique and less of the mundane.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where meaning is rescued from noise…
Where conviction replaces thoughtless repetition…
Where what everyone is saying surrenders to what needs to be said.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where the shouting of the masses falls silent to the whisper of the one…
Where the voice of the majority submits to the voice of reason…
Where “they” do not exist; but “we” do.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where substance overthrows the superficial…
Where courage conquers compliance and conformity…
Where words do not travel farther than the person who speaks them.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where I only say what I believe.
Where I only repeat what changes me.
Where empty words finally rest in peace.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.

“Be still and know that I am God…” -Psalm 46:10a

Go Brett!

This is for everyone who made fun of me for having Brett Favre as my fantasy football quarterback

Green Bay 52 New Orleans 3

I knew Brett wouldn't let me down :)

Happy Birthday Brett ! Oct 10th 1969

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Seeing God everyday

I'm listening to a set of CD's my friend Mike made for me from the audiobook "God's Politics" by Jim Wallis It takes me 30 min to drive to work and 30 min to drive home so I've been able to get through these quickly and I've enjoyed listening to them Yesterday he switched from the Iraqui war to poverty and there was a story about a woman named Mary Glover that stuck with me Mary is a self appointed missionary and volunteer in the food line Mary said their prayer before they opened their doors She was the best pray-er "Mary was one of those people who pray like they know to whom they're talking You got the sense that she'd been carrying on a running conversation with her Lord for a very long time." This is what Mary always prayed...

"Lord,we know that you'll be comin' through this line today, so Lord, help us to treat you well."

Mary understands Matthew 25 and she lives it..that's my have a heart like Mary

"Come you that are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world;for I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you gave me clothing, I was sick and you took care of me. I was in prison and you visited me." Then the righteous will answer him, "Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry and gave you food,or thirsty and gave you something to drink? And when was it we saw you a stranger and welcomed you, or naked and gave you clothing? And when was it that we saw you sick or in prison and visited you? And the king will answer them "Truly I tell you,just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family,you did it to me " Matthew 25:34-40

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Erwin McManus on 722

My morning didn't start out the greatest I found out that I have a herniated disc with nerve compression in my cervical spine(C6-C7) that may or may not need surgery I have to see a neurosurgeon Oct 27
Then I spilled an Enorme size coffee all over the front seat of Darrell's jinxed malibu :) He wasn't real happy with me :)
God always knows what I need to bring me out of my lows :)
I decided to watch 722 with Erwin McManus
He did a sermon on ambition I've read "The Barbarian Way" which I would recommend but if you need an uplifting of your soul and you have an hour listen to Erwin It was the most passionate sermon I've heard for awhile and it will fill up your soul and put the passion in your heart plus Chris Tomlin plays at the end and just hearing all the college aged kids singing from their heart will lift you up :)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

"Shut Up and Jump"

There's a man who runs a bungee jumping operation and he wears a t-shirt that says "Shut Up and Jump" In one of the books I'm reading they made a comparison of our fear and trust in God to bungee jumping "There has to be a time between jumping and being "caught" that you are scared to death, praying your guts out, and hoping against hope that something is going to grab you and save your life"
God promises to catch us

"Say to them that are of a fearful heart
Be strong, fear not, behold,
your God will come...
he will come and save you Isaiah 35:4 KJV

Sometimes it's hard when you're in those dark places afraid ...I know..I've been there alot but just imagine God saying this to you

"You are tied on Even if you make a mistake I promise This is the place I have led you to This is exactly the right time Tell fear to step aside Trust me I have you and I promise I'll catch you It's okay ...Now shut up and jump"

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Happy 17th Birthday Zach

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Zach turns 17 today He was born on a Tuesday on a day with weather identical to what it is today I always give him a hard time because he was supposed to be born in Sept but he's such a couch potato he just thought he'd hang out a little longer
That was probably a good thing though because we moved into our house in West Carrollton Oct 2 ..I don't know where our heads were thinking we could move with a 22month old and a newborn STRESSFUL!!! The day was pretty much a blur but it was the night of the vice-presidenttial debates(Dan Quayle and I forget the democrat) and Kirk Gibson hit his famous pinch hit homerun in the bottom of the 9th inning of the World Series to beat the Oakland A's
Zach is the biggest sport nut I know and is true blue to his teams no matter what kind of season they have Boston Red Sox,Michigan football,and Kentucky basketball
He loves playstation 2, he loves to play putt putt, he loves to pass football and baseball with Darrell in the back yard, and he loves to hang out with Ryan,Brendan,and Alex on Fri nights.
Zach you are one of a kind and I wouldn't trade you..hmmm except maybe for a good backup quarterback for my fantasy team :)

Monday, October 03, 2005

Celebrate Life- October is Breast Cancer Awareness month

I went to look for a birthday card for my son in the gift shop here at work and found a coin with the breast cancer pink ribbon and an angel on the front and the following saying on the back

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us" Celebrate Life! Ralph Waldo Emerson

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month.. I take any opportunity to support it and to thank God for healing me

Saturday, October 01, 2005

I love Fall

Fall is my favorite time of the year

Here are some of my reasons why

1 The sky seems brighter blue

2 The chill in the air in the evening

3 The smell of burning leaves and fireplaces

4 The colors of the leaves

5 Apple cider

6 Halloween candy

7 High school football games

8 No air conditioner

9 My wedding anniversary Sept 28

10 Zach's birthday Oct 4

11 Kristen's birthday Nov 25

12 Thanksgiving (Kristen, Tyler and my sister come home)and the food :)